lmao. okay okay. so i know the date says sundayy butt i'm goinnn to be talkin about yesterday, cuz yesterday was cool :)
so the day begins with me waking up in the morning and finishing my english essay. lmao. yea i know what a nerd rite? =P but anyawyss.. then my bro, mom and i headed out for lunch and we ate at this pretty looking resturant but the food was mah mah day.
lmao. this is where the fun starts : ) okay. so my bro and i head out to pmall. and we called nat when we got there, and she wanted to introduce me to john. haha when nat said not good looking, but not ugly either.. i expected someone a lot worse, but john was not bad at all. haha he was like super super nice to nat :) it was so cute. haha the awkward thing was that john went and jitz with my brother (except he didn't know that linus was my brother). so nat and i went to take some pmall pics :) yayyay. and then nat was saying how she was thirsty and wanted bbt. when we got back up they weren't at orbit anymore and i was like.. wuh? where'd they go?? anywyas. they found us, and we all went down stairs for some bbt :) my bro had to go sumwhere.. washroom i think, and he was like. 'here are 3 cards. see if any of them can get u a discount' . (laughs) all three cards were rejected XD hahaha. anyways. nat was going to get bbt, and so was john.. and then nat got out her wallet.. and i was like 'hey isn't the guy suppose to treat the girl?? ;) ' and john was lke 'ohhhh okay. i'll pay nat' hahaha that was funny :) anyways, my bro came back, and we were all sitting at the bbt place just talking.. and then i was like 'john, do you know linus and i are siblings?' and john was like.. 'O___O really?' hahaha . i like shocking people. it's fun :) anyways. my brother had to give nat a ride to her workplace, and john went with her. so i was at pmall all by myself :((( i was like lonely for 25 minutes. cuz ingrid and alvin weren't there yet, neither was beverly and jeff~! well anyways.. my bro starts complaining about how mhq is expensive and not that good... and that he wanted to go to Mix 2. so i called beverly and asked if she wanted to go to Mix 2. and she was so like.. NO. MHQ~!!!!!!!!! and so my very pissed brother and i waited at MHQ for her. she came and brought like other friends too. now there was too many people. and we had to split into two rooms. so my bro called alvin and he was so loud about it... he was like 'YEA ALVIN. GO TO Mix 2, THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE HERE' and like beverly, jeff and all her friends could hear him. so i just told beverly that i was gonna go wherever ingrid is going. cuz i can't ditch her. and then they just walked into the sing k rooms and like.. i felt so bad. =/ right there and then. i remember that i felt like my whole day was ruined. bcuz i have one stubborn friend and one pissed brother. rawrz* they were both like kids. and so i was really upset. so when we got to mix 2 i was really down and stuff.. and everytime i was half cryin, i pretended to yawn so people won't know...or like i pretend to sleep, closing my eyes to stop the tears from coming out. yea. and then like midway i txted beverly to say sorryy.. cuz i felt so bad. and then she called and then i started to like cry. = =v. good thing i was in the hallway. ><'' yea. anyways. after i cried i felt better. and she told me not to be sad.. so i tried. but it's hard. yarss.. so then afterwards.. ingrid was like. 'are you tired? you seem so tired' and that's cuz my eyes were all watery from cryin i think. and i was like ' no..' and told her i was cryingg.. and she asked why and i said i'll tell her later. i meant later as in on the blog. but anyways... i felt so much better after she asked me and stuff :) rawrz* thanks best bud. so then.. i got so high afterwards. i duno why. but it was awesome ^^. haha just lots of fooling around with ingrid, linus and alvin. XD oh yeaa.. i saw alvin making moves on ingridd but then i walked in the room and he like pretended he wasn't doing anything XD haha. but i have good eyes. :) so yar. sing k turned out to be great ^___^ so sing k time was ending.. and ingrid and alvin weren't goin to join us for dinner.. but then they called home and found out that their parents had already ate dinner. so they came to dinner with us. yay~!! and then my bro and i went to pick up natalie.. we couldn't find her house, but we got it eventually ^^'' my bro was so pissed then. anywaysss.. we went back to pmall. and all the stores and stuff were already closed :( boohoo no shopping. (it was only 9:30 then) so nat and i were waiting for ingrid to come, so we stood upstairs looking down at the centre thing. there were these 3 guys, that was like looking at us the whole time. it was very scarryy. TT_TT yars. we walked into orbit.. and this girl that knew my brother jumpped and hugged him when he was said hi to her, (her bf was there too) haha. we saw bevan's friend alex there too. so nat and i just walked out of orbit.. and those 3 guys were still looking at us and smiling. it was very scary. lmao. anyawys. we saw ingrid and alvin coming up so we went to meet them at the escalator. there, we saw my brother's childhood friend, joseph, my childhood friend, fiona and denise. but they dont remember me anymore =P except for joseph..which really surprised me. but yea. they knew ingrid so they said hi and stuff. my brother was still in orbit, so the four of us (ingrid, alvin, nat and i) we went to go look for a resturant. we wlked in to this viet one.. and they were like 'sorry we're closed' and we walked right back out. then we went in to another one.. and they were like 'sorry. the chefs are all gone' = =v it was horrible timing. haha. oh yeaa.. alex and this girl who had her arm hooked around his.. they were walking.. and then ingrid and nat were tryin not to laughh as we walked past.. lmao. alex was like 'where you guys going now?' the girls totally ignored him.. so alvin had to say something and was like 'iunno' haha. oh yeaa.. and we were like.. is that his girlfriend? but then that girl saw some other guy and she like ran and hugged that guy. alex was like..'i still have ur purse', the girl ran back and like snatched it from him and alex walked back alonee. so sadd :( but anywhoo. my brother came out and his friends came out too. so that girl that hugged him from bfore is called Jessica :) she's really nice. i felt like i met her from sumwhere before.. but i don't remember.. but i realized now that she has the same personality as this girl from school :) harhar. me and my crappy memory. soooo... since all the resturants were closed, we decided to head up to fmp. we went to the bbt resturant there and haha. oh wait. i ahve to go to church. i will finish this up when i get bak : )
whee.. in my world of chinglish.... gum yut ngo jow ley ding mm shun lah. first of all, in math, yow goh quizz.. and ngo mm sik joh.. doh mm g ding giy. yum wai joh chou yut taii, zao mo sia suun sum. law yow hiy geh. accting jung tsa. but goh, ngo tong calvun gong fan yea tong mmai siu haha luu. lunchie tong physics doh gay ho. but goh fong juh houk gee hou leh...gohgohyun yow tai hey kui tong gohgohlamtsai dee see...gun ju kui g doh ngo dui binggohbinggoh yao gum geh lahh.. but goh, kui jung gong.. yao jing doh ngo ho sheung mm tong kui jo pung yow. =T
gun ju, hui joh convenience store.. goh goh yun yao bay meen sik bay phoebe tung ngo taai. gun ju, lum ju sing k, but then, yao goh auntie tung mai yut goh tsai loh goh joh ley. euu dung 2 hrs till kui dey jaow. hiyyy.. gun ju, jao bay ah ma laow, ging doh ngo mm hoi sum, fat pai hai.
ngo gum goh weekend lum ju tong pung yaow cheut hiu wan..but goh yee gah doh mm g dim. hiy~! saow mm doh yee d hai lah!! :(
i just had to let all this out. i hope someone rescues me. hopefully majoirie. ><"' haha he's very very slowly becoming my prince =P
whee. just great. zomgg.. the gang is just so hard to get through. they're acting as if they're children. two of them are randomly not talking and it's just pissing everyone off around them. they can't input any ideas on where they would like to go this friday, but just that they want to go "out". well people, where the hell would "out" be?!? one of them is going on a double date, and well i'm glad for her, but she's just giving me attitude. ARHHHHHH.
and like this saturday too. i just want to sing k with my friends, but zomg it's turning out to be such a mess. like people want to sing at different times. and i would have to sing twice @____@ sighz* this is so crazy it's making me frustrted and bleehhh. i hope everything works out in the end.. or i might end up crying because my weekend is ruined =T
lmao. there's something really weird about me.. and it's the fact that i'm interested older guys.. particularly this one university dude. like today we just talked, jokingly and seriously about relationships and stuff. haha it was strange and awkward, but it was something i enjoyed. it was nice to talk to a more mature guy and just get to know them. : ) lmao. he like makes my problems go away when i talk to him, like i don't have to tell him my problems, but the way he talks always makes me smile and just laugh away all those things that make me sad, mad, or upset. haha. maybe we'll meet up sometime and maybe then, i'll get to know the real him... not the msn him : P
that's about all. : ) just felt like updating something.. that made today extra special. ^^ not that the things that happened below wasn't specialll but, just yea : )
it's funny how stuff works out.. just one day i can be so frustrated and upset and then the next day, everything works out and i can just be myself again. i want to thank that person for being such a great friend. person = ingrid. and don't worry about me, i'll grow up and get over it XD for SURE. lmao. when i read those past blogs, i felt like i was reading a little kid's temper tantrum and haha, it sucks to know that it was me. =P
so life moves on. mmmmm.. got some hmk.. and zomg, english is confusing me T^T it's so sad. i dun even KNOW what i'm talking about anymore. i feel like such a loser in english, just cuz of that comparitve essay.. i hope i don't have to do stuff like that in university.. cuz i know i'll just DIE =((((
anyways, sing k this sat : ) definitely looking forward to it. XD yayyer~!
iunno why.. but acks. i really hate the friendship they have. i really hate them. the fact that they both exist, the fact they are hanging out together. and especially the fact that i friggin introduced them. if i didn't, everything would be effing great, and i wouldn't end up hating myself and them. i just wish, they will both disappear. wish the both of them had never wandered in my life. a part of me wants to make them both regret. i want to hurt them so badllyy (emotionally that is). i feel so evil right now, that i just hate me.
i don't know why this is getting to me. i never experienced this kind of growing hatred. i just wish i was back in the summer times. where i would care about nothing, and just have tons of fun. i would be
happy at least, i would never be frustrated, feeling anguish or any of this shit right now. i don't know what to do anymore. the more i see or hear of them doing anything together.. just pisses me off. my friend at church told me that she and her friends always had this motto: "chicks before dicks" and i totally agree.. except this time, i'm a chick after a dick >: ( and it just pisses me off.
yay. my dad called from hk ^^ glad to know he's safe :) lmao. ahalala. so that totally ruined my rant mood, but oh wells. yea. that's all.. for now =P
zomg. today was awesome =] lmao. so i woke up early and worked on physics. haha what a nerd ^^"' i barely ate lunch, and then off to nis' and mel's bday party i went. :) lmao. i never had soo much fun in laserquest. i may not have scored lots of points.. but yars, it was uberly fun. haha KC won with a total of like 3148 points.. and we only played 2 games. haha. he just stood there and shot at people. so pro. lmao. then traii and i went shopping >:DDD lmao. it was fun. it took me forever to get to the washroommm, cuz it kept on leading me to another place to get to the washrooms. but i made it in the end, so my bladder ended up not blowing into pieces. haha. we toook lots of silly pics, and then we went to my house to do physics. yay for physics. -__-'' we got most of the stuff done, we just need to make a final copy~! and then we'll hand it in. haha we also took like 160 pics on webcam. hahaha soo retarded and we did this in like 40 minutes too. XD i never knew that it was possible. but i guess it is >:)) haha. traii left at 10 and then i was back upstairs and onto msn.
i msged angela on msn. and we just talked.. i think i got to know her a little better and that's pretty good.. cuz yea. she's having some problems right noww and i hope that when she told me them, that she felt a little better.. even if i can't really solve them or make them go away, i hope that she feels better ^^ love you angiee. stay strong huns.
i talked to Majoirie, which is this university dude i met online >:) he's a model and he's really funny and cool.. and sexy XD lmao. he's gonna model for guess now. so i wish him all the best luck~! haha we talked about future plans and what we plan to go into and stuff like that. :) it was cool. haha he kept making these random jokes about how we might end up being together. but the age difference is like 5 yearss. so i was like.. maybe, but i doubt it. XD haha we never even MET yet. so yupyuuppp, we're gonna go for sushi some time ^____^ and he's treating. so that's even more awesome. haha let me quote him:
"each roll is like a party in your mouth. don't let it ever end!!"
lmaoo so funny XD. he's a good guy. yuup and then i was talking to Gordon, who is another aweomse university dude that i know and met from church. he's such a nice guy :) and yea. we talked about keeping up in our spiritual life, and i realized i really needed to catch up and not just stand here and wait for something to happen. i really needed to do my devos, and dedicate myself to God. =] and that's something i really want to do, and i hope to accomplish. yupyup
so then the morning came and i ended up talkin to the same two people i mentioned last post. they totally ruined my happy streak. and i just like.... don't like them as much now. but i still am one of their friendss.. cuz yea, we're close and stuff. anyways. i got so feed up with those two i put on msn name :
"i hope you crash and burn, but not die, cause then you'd have to feel the pain.
yea i know. it's mean. but heyyy.. it's not wrong to be angry sometimes is it? ><"' maybe i shouldn't curse them. i'm just going to take that off on msn now =]
yea now that i got everything out, i feel loads bettter. =D
special thanks to majoirie and gordo, for being such awesome peeps ;) lmao.
oh and most of all. THANKS TWINNIE ~! for being such an awesome bud and listening to me.
i forgot. lmao. something funny happened in law class. we were tlakin about gay people .. and then this guy said.
"it's adam and eve, not adam and steve."
lmao. yea just something stupid =]
i am sucking on a chocolate bar right now. =T sighz* just thinking about the stupid little problems i'm dealing with. one thing is that my kai-goh is being all emo again, self-centred and extremely self conscience, bcuz of what one person said. and that one person should've known better. she said those things like he had no life. they used to be important to each other, they were kai-goh and kai-mui, and now they're just acting like little kids. and that honestly makes me mad at both of them >: (
anyways. i'm just so sick of what's going on with my life rite now. trai knows what i mean.. i dun even know what to do. i can't stop that person and tell them to not do anything anymore, bcuz they are important to me. i want them to be happy..but because of that. i'm settin my own feelings aside for them, and just puttin on a smile like nothing's wrong. i don't know how long i can do it...but when i face them, and they just tell me everything and etc, i just can't help but listen and be a friend. i thot about it for awhile, and i realized that God meant for it to happen this way. these trials and tests, i can make it through even if it means to break me down in everyway. i have to cling on to His word and His life.
i just hope that my twinnie will be here with me everystep of the way~!!! u're my buddie in life twinnie >:) thanks for everything. for listening and caring. you're like the closest person to me right now, cuz you know everything that's going on in my life.. and it's just so awesome.. how you understand, it's like God gave me a friend like you cuz you know how i feel. =] thanks twinnie ♥ ~!!
right now. i'm going to just concentrate on life and on school. i'm gonna wait for university. for that special someone in my life. i'm gonna rely on God everystep of the way. no matter how hard. this is a promise to myself.
wish me luck : )
