smexiness ;)

i am sucking on a chocolate bar right now. =T sighz* just thinking about the stupid little problems i'm dealing with. one thing is that my kai-goh is being all emo again, self-centred and extremely self conscience, bcuz of what one person said. and that one person should've known better. she said those things like he had no life. they used to be important to each other, they were kai-goh and kai-mui, and now they're just acting like little kids. and that honestly makes me mad at both of them >: (

anyways. i'm just so sick of what's going on with my life rite now. trai knows what i mean.. i dun even know what to do. i can't stop that person and tell them to not do anything anymore, bcuz they are important to me. i want them to be happy..but because of that. i'm settin my own feelings aside for them, and just puttin on a smile like nothing's wrong. i don't know how long i can do it...but when i face them, and they just tell me everything and etc, i just can't help but listen and be a friend. i thot about it for awhile, and i realized that God meant for it to happen this way. these trials and tests, i can make it through even if it means to break me down in everyway. i have to cling on to His word and His life.
i just hope that my twinnie will be here with me everystep of the way~!!! u're my buddie in life twinnie >:) thanks for everything. for listening and caring. you're like the closest person to me right now, cuz you know everything that's going on in my life.. and it's just so awesome.. how you understand, it's like God gave me a friend like you cuz you know how i feel. =] thanks twinnie ♥ ~!!
right now. i'm going to just concentrate on life and on school. i'm gonna wait for university. for that special someone in my life. i'm gonna rely on God everystep of the way. no matter how hard. this is a promise to myself.

wish me luck : )

posted by viviee @ 4:24 PM