smexiness ;)

iunno why.. but acks. i really hate the friendship they have. i really hate them. the fact that they both exist, the fact they are hanging out together. and especially the fact that i friggin introduced them. if i didn't, everything would be effing great, and i wouldn't end up hating myself and them. i just wish, they will both disappear. wish the both of them had never wandered in my life. a part of me wants to make them both regret. i want to hurt them so badllyy (emotionally that is). i feel so evil right now, that i just hate me.

i don't know why this is getting to me. i never experienced this kind of growing hatred. i just wish i was back in the summer times. where i would care about nothing, and just have tons of fun. i would be happy at least, i would never be frustrated, feeling anguish or any of this shit right now. i don't know what to do anymore. the more i see or hear of them doing anything together.. just pisses me off. my friend at church told me that she and her friends always had this motto: "chicks before dicks" and i totally agree.. except this time, i'm a chick after a dick >: ( and it just pisses me off.

yay. my dad called from hk ^^ glad to know he's safe :) lmao. ahalala. so that totally ruined my rant mood, but oh wells. yea. that's all.. for now =P

posted by viviee @ 6:19 PM